I am stuck….can’t seem to get going…can’t seem to start. I have struggled for the last year with weight and health. Don’t get me wrong, I am healthy but mentally I just don’t know sometimes. I battle constantly with guilt and self worth. I can’t seem to get control of my wellness. I don’t want to say life because in all other aspects of my life, I have control. My job is successful, my relationships are full but when it comes to my health I can’t seem to get balance, to get consistency, to get focus. I know what I need, I blog about it, I pin it, I follow it and I am inspired by it. Yoga, Meditation, Spirituality, healthy eating…I feel like I am doing research on a book report that never ends. And…so far I have enjoyed every bit of it….because it interests me, inspires me, ignites me!! But something seems to be stopping me from adopting it as practice. I meditate…inconsistently, I do not make healthy eating routine and I have not yet begun to make yoga a daily ritual. And I hate myself for every failure, for every avoidance. I even picture me…older….possibly even in the throes of last moments and feeling regret for all I always wanted to commit to and never did. What the hell?? What needs to click in my brain to make me feel motivated…focused. But I have to make it click….I need to re wire my brain to make it so. How do I do that? Is this a start…admitting and laying it all out there? Do I need to do some spiritual purging and get rid of some of my mental clutter? Maybe I need to have more humility to accept that I need guidance? Or have the courage to see that age is what is happening, accept it and fight it every step of the way! Don’t fight the wisdom, don’t fight the grace, don’t fight the elegance, don’t fight the respect…BUT…battle the fatigue, combat the slow metabolism, wage war on the mood swings…..Fight it! But first I have to get un-stuck…to start….to begin!! NOW!